A WoRlD Of My OwN

Love ~

2007-04-23T16:47:00.000+08:00

I carry your heart with me,
i carry it in my heart and i'm never without it.
anywhere i go, you go, my dear.
and whatever is done, by only me, is your doing, my darling.
i fear no fear for you are my fate, my sweet.
i want no world for beautiful, you are my world my true.
it's you or whatever a moon has always meant,
and whatever a sun will always sing is you.
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the tree called life
which grows higher and higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that is keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart,
i carry it in my heart.

To that person ~~

2007-03-23T01:49:00.000+08:00

I promise i will be true ~~~

Emo emo emo

2007-03-04T03:15:00.000+08:00

In Darkness

Must all of worth be travailled for, and those

Life's brightest stars rise from a troubled sea

Must years go by in sad uncertainty

Leaving us doubting whose the conquering blows,

Are we or Fate the victors? Time which shows

All inner meanings will reveal, but we

Shall never know the upshot. Ours to be

Wasted with longing, shattered in the throes,

The agonies of splendid dreams, which day

Dims from our vision, but each night brings back;

We strive to hold their grandeur, and essay

To be the thing we dream. Sudden we lack

The flash of insight, life grows drear and gray,

And hour follows hour, nerveless, slack.

At Night

The wind is singing through the trees to-night,

A deep-voiced song of rushing cadences

And crashing intervals. No summer breeze

Is this, though hot July is at its height,

Gone is her gentler music; with delight

She listens to this booming like the seas,

These elemental, loud necessities

Which call to her to answer their swift might.

Above the tossing trees shines down a star,

Quietly bright; this wild, tumultuous joy

Quickens nor dims its splendour. And my mind,

O Star! is filled with your white light, from far,

So suffer me this one night to enjoy

The freedom of the onward sweeping wind.

Before Dawn

Life! Austere arbiter of each man's fate,

By whom he learns that Nature's steadfast laws

Are as decrees immutable; O pause

Your even forward march! Not yet too late

Teach me the needed lesson, when to wait

Inactive as a ship when no wind draws

To stretch the loosened cordage. One implores

Thy clemency, whose wilfulness innate

Has gone uncurbed and roughshod while the years

Have lengthened into decades; now distressed

He knows no rule by which to move or stay,

And teased with restlessness and desperate fears

He dares not watch in silence thy wise way

Bringing about results none could have guessed

Really ~

2007-02-11T22:33:00.000+08:00

Crap comp crap internet ~ has just shifted my pc to the living room . Suspected problem router spoilt thus i have to connect it to e modem directly ~~ its like so @$#@!@ at least i can get to use the net for the time being . Ok CNY is coming WISHES LOTS n LOTS of hongbao so i can go to e states in june and Japan in dec ( haha must work n save alot ) Hope every1 get lots of hongbao too

School finally started !!!

2007-01-08T22:09:00.000+08:00

Its the first day of school today !! Haha ~~ have my 1st lesson on commercial law. Shd be a very intresting subject i hope ~~ but the foreign lecturer is not dat good. Whenever there e slightest noise he will cross his hands and stop talking ~ Its like so @$!king irritating.I mean how will u like when someone talks 1 sentence stops 10sec talk another sentence and stops another 10sec its like ARGH !!!! Lucky hes only here for 3 lessons ( it will be a disaster if the local lecturer is worse ) Every1 has start school ~~ this sem i will weigh my studies heavier then play ... errr i think 5% more hahah ~~ Relaxing and enjoying oneself is an important aspect of a heathy lifestyle ok !! =) Nowadays my internet quite f***ed up ~~ oways cut off like once in every 30min thus i wun be that online often le ~~~ haha will spend the time studying ( i am telling the truth !!! ) signing off ~~ happy schooling to everyone !!!

BBQ madness

2006-12-28T14:28:00.000+08:00

Went to a BBQ by RC staff ~~ was supposed to reach there at 3pm ~~ but as usual e lazy me slowly took my time. Reached Bedok interchange at 4pm ~ but alas it started raining heavily so decided to take shelter at e interchange.Waited 1 hr till the rain gets smaller n Munhao fetch me over to eastcoast park pit 27. Played some very tong nian de games like Pepsi Cola ( mr ash suggested de ) and 1 wierd game which mr munhao explained ( ages ) to us. 2 teams of 4 ppl 2 pairs of shoes and 1 mighty ball. Its like catching meets hantam bola meets bowling? It was hard to grasp it at the start but in the end its quite fun overall just tiring cos of all the running. Played till 7+ and we gt tired thus sit down n relax. Started playing card games n finger guessing games with forfeits ( white wine ). This is where i start to get errrr tipsy ~~ have to apologise for any troubles caused though i am still considered one of the more sober de ~~ though i vomit alot. It been ages since i drink past my limit ~~ nonono nxt time :p Thx dodo alicia for fetching all of us home Thx ck sis for the tea ( See told ya guys i am still sober i still remember basically everything dat happens !! wahaha ) kk gotta go out to meet ck n guys le ~~ is spending time blogging here cos the stupid chris is late. Suppose to meet him at 215 then he delay till 245 ~~ Tadax all

Stupid comp spoil

2006-12-21T19:57:00.000+08:00

OMG ~~ my comp has just died on me !! Imagine days at home without a comp to use -- its like crap. Went to the staff party at crazyhorse -- quite orite the most farni part is when this cross-dress person MissDivious ( dunnoe the spelling ) and our drunk chef Edward is so turned on by this half male half female . I wun go into details as its kinda x-rated the things he do and say ~~ haha. After the dinner ends and the drinking ends ~ we went to ktv ~~ stayed till 6am went home change n tada me ck n chris in dodo car going to his hse. Will be having soccer at 11am. Never really sleep much . Played soccer till around 2pm Sleep awhile and go to the play " Jack n the bean sprout " Its such a hilarous play ~ and the cast have superb voices. Was mesmerised by their vocals. Went down to zouk pondering wether to go in, upon seeing the que decided to go eat prawn noodles 1st instead. Ard 1am, the big sign board is out FULL HOUSE. Jerome Edwin n Bernerd must be having a fun time mamboing inside haha ~~ In the end took a cab home and lie on bed for 2hrs be4 fdrifting to sleep ~~ Hope i manage to repair the comp asap or else i gotta borrow my sis comp every now n den le ~~ signing out

Friday night ~~~

2006-12-16T03:27:00.000+08:00

Slept all the way till 2pm till i recieve a sms from mint. Went to meet her after her work ( only half hour work hehe i oso want this type of job worx ) Basically we were like looking at all the promotions happening in orchard~ 1st up is a log cake competition, whoever finish the logcake 1st will walk away with an ipod shuffle ~~ so theres 3 guys up for it ~~ the 1st one is like taking his own sweet time enjoying the cake so it was a fierce battle btw e other 2 ~~ the hand eAting style or the gentlemenly eating style. Quote of the day from the host " It WAS a logcake but now i dunno wat it is " The hand eating style is basically mash up the whole logcake into small balls wich lk like muffins n gobble them up. The gentlemen style is the normal way of eating a cake 1 mouthful by 1 mouthful. In the end it was deemed a tie and both guys walk home happy wif a shuffle ( e hand style guy actually is slower by abit but guess e organisers wanna thank him for his effort ) Nxt we went to lk for perfumes ~~ while walking we stop by and lk at those silver ppl on display.Got this guy who is damn professional his eyes not even blink a momment--respect. While we were walking back after we gt the perfume mint wanted ~ hugo boss ~ we stop by the olympus promotion lking at gals being dropped in water. Not going into full details ~~ haha u can oways go orchard n find out ~~ i was then chosen to go demostrate the shockproof of the camera by dropping it from a height of 1.8m and in return i get a souvenior~~ Until now me mint and even her frens cant figure out wat e hell the souvenior is used for. It looks like a bag but with no strap wierd design and just plain ugly~~ went to lk for mint's frens at bugis afterwards as they are going to dbl O later ~~ got a call from jerome asking us to go zouk instead ~~ Sorry bro in the end nv go down zouk to look for u hope u have hell of a time dere ~ I went to rivercafe lk for my friends watching damn suaning each other while Mint go DBL O ~~ its 330am and i just reach home haha signing out i might be going for basketball early in the morning at 830am 2molo provided if i manage to wake up :)

Friends ~~

2006-12-09T14:41:00.000+08:00

So much for promising not to club that often and i m out wif mint to club again ... Went dbl O for hennessy artistry ~~ but alas e music quite sucky and we are back in bumble bee ~~~ Edwin and Bernerd pangseh me again !!!! Forever de lor ~ Met Mint's farnie friend ( oops hope she wun see this ) and basically quite a fun night ~ Haha but yes yes there must be less clubbing & More movies instead MINT !!! =p Going to work soonx ~~ for all those friends going to MOS tonight enjoy ya clubbing ~~ haha feel free to come visit me cos i am juz a few steps away !!!!

Nightlife n Booze

2006-12-08T00:09:00.001+08:00

Being clubbing drinking quite a lot this past 2 wks ~~ spend alot as well ... I need more work more pay !!! Haha wed juz went out with my 2 best frens Simon n Des ~ watch saw3 such a gruesome n gross show all the most unthinkable ways of a person being tortured to death Yucks ~~~ After e show meet up with mint n her grp of frens ~~ Drink again !!! Arghhh i am not actually a good drinker but i think i have level up alot le. Christmas is coming soon ~~ Simple wishes for christmas Happiness Good Health Doing wateva things i like ===> applies to every1 No presents is alright ~ as long as the new year is going to be a very much better year then 2006. Going to be 23 soon === suddenly feel i am so old le ~~ must be more errr sensible? I m oways very sensible i guess haha a nice guy with big big dreams ~~ when will i get the chance and the massive lots of $$ to travel around the world !!!! Signing out ~~~

Results are out

2006-12-05T03:10:00.000+08:00

Accounting -- pass 54 marks
Mkting -- pass 58marks
Econs -- HD 81marks
Computing -- Cr 65marks

Overall not very satisfied with my results except for econs ~~ Maybe next sem i need be more hardworking and attentive le ~~ its quite lucky that i manage to scrape thru this sem ~~ I want to end my degree with gd results !!!

Went KTV with Doron Alicia n CK today ~~ overall quite fun I luv singing so ktv sessions are oways fun to me Haha ~~ who wanna listen to me open concert can oways give me a call or sms ~~ Logging out Nightx

Hello All !!! Guess who's blogging

2006-12-03T14:11:00.000+08:00

Its like ages since i last started posting ~ Laziness sets in whenever i feel like blogging ( i am a perfectionist wanting to give readers the best possible reading experience -- like real )
Lets start with a complain ~~~ idiotic Singapore Airlines. My dad was on his trip to China last week booked the ticket for SIA economy class for 11am flight. On the very day itself we arriverd 2hours earlier to check in the luggages. Guess what the attendent told us that all the seats are fully occupied and we were like huh? Thought we have booked the ticket for e 11 am flight , out came a very illogical explanation " Dear sir , I know you book ya ticket for the 11am flight but all the seats have been taken up, its a first come first serve basis " This is the 1st time i heard plane seats are on a first come first serve basis. " Would u like to change ya flight to 1pm since seats for 11am has all been taken up." Out of no choice we have to agree ( dat time we have not had lunch yet so a delay of 2 hrs is perfectly fine ) " Sorry sir , seats for 1pm flight is fully occupied too i cant promise u anything " We were like WTH !!! My dad had booked an 11am flight n now e attendent is pushing him to god knows what time, what is SIA doing. After abit of whining n complaining SIA did the smart thing ( to prevent us from badmouthing them ) My dad is transferred to business class for the 1pm flight and we were given a compensation of $300 . A family of 4 happens to encounter the same case too and they were given $1.2k WoW ~~~ All in all SIA really has to review the way they are selling tickets. Because of the holidays etc they have been selling exceeding amounts of tickets disregarding the availibity of seats on a plane, my dad is one such poor victim ( or shd i say a $300 richer victim ) Hmmm this leads me wondering maybe nxt time i will check in just 1 hr be4 the flight and pray they tell me " SIR theres no seats for u "
I lurve my grp of friends i am with nowadays ~ jerome , edwin , berberd , serjin great singing khakis ( and my they do have a great voice ) Lots of fun whenever i am with them though i am the oldest of them lots. Haha a lot of ppl say i dun lk 22 at all instead i lk 19 must be the aura from this bunch of guys. Went Zouk with Jerome on Dec 1st for " Female's top 50 gorgeous ppl " quite a kelong competition i must say but since none of my frens are in the final 50 it doesnt really matters to me. GOOD BUDDY JEROME then leave me alone while dancing with a hot gal. In the end i went to drink on my own and after awhile i went home alone leaving my GOOD BUDDY BEHIND~~ What are friends for anyway~~ Dec 2nd meet my new found friend Mint ( 2-3wks ) for dinner ~ pretty gal who likes the colour black ~~ gonna buy her some colourful clothes i guessed hehe . Went chill at es pub before heading down to MOS. Have a great time dere with the usual 4 muskateers ( i m the 5th bit since i m older i shd be the leader ) and Mint. Haha Mint has 2 grps of frens at MOS n she saw none of them wich leads to her dancing with us -- thx lots for accompanying me n frens thruout ~phew~ hahaha anyway thx guys for great fun yesterday --- hope ther's more to come haha and hope i will blog more often :p

Me and Mint --- my nose looks so big herez ~~ btw this pics lks so much clearer thz to the super editing skills of mint

Me Edwin n Bernerd in partyworld ~ Jerome and Serjin has left early

Confused be4 my 22nd Bdae

2006-10-05T01:22:00.000+08:00

Have been thinking about lots of stuff lately. Worked 4 days last week and earn $310 ... tiring but i think its worth it. Next thing in line is project due date !! I admit i didnt contribute much e week i was working cos i was oways home at 3+am ( my work end latelate de ) However i m glad my teammates didnt really scold me but instead did extremely well on their parts + abit of mine too *** grateful*** Finally we have completed the project as a team ~ High Distinction shd be no problem judging from e effort u all have put in. After the project came another whack in the head making me thinking hard each day ( lucki no white hair pops out ) My frens say i have been confused regarding this matter 3mths ago le wich i dunch really realise it. Hopefully be4 my birthday which is on the 16th oct i am able to get an answer ( how i wish its gonna be the one i would like to hear ) Haha my msn nick lots of ppl are asking me wat am i comfiused abt some know some dunch ~ its just like plucking the petals from a rose should i or should i not :p Yaya my Birthday is coming SOOON 16th oct remember the date everyone ~~ i m expecting lots of gifts from u all as i have been the nicest n best friend around that you will ever find :p so i will be patiently waiting ~ for the ANSWER and my PREZZZZIES !!!

Pictured Galore ~~~

2006-07-12T00:37:00.000+08:00

Haha such a long time never update le ... Haha i will post e pics i have taken when i m in hongkong ~~~ Anything just give me a ring

Updates~

2006-03-30T21:20:00.000+08:00

Totally in lurve wif songs by stars ~~~~~~Ageless beauty .... WE WILL ALWAYS BE THE LIGHT~~~~~~ Haha.Every1 muz go and listen yah, a very diff kind of music from those recent pop songs. Hmm dats all. Aniting juz give me a call or msg bahz tada~

SiCk

2006-02-23T19:35:00.000+08:00

Coughing non stop
Sneezing Foreva
Throat getting Sore
Body getting Tired
Eyes getting Sleepy

STILL GOTTA WORK ..........................................

HaPpIe NeW YeAr~~

2006-01-28T14:35:00.000+08:00

Happy chinese new year to all. May every gets lotz n lotz n lotz of hongbaos, and get to eat lotz n lotz n lotz of delicious stuff. Just dunch get too fat can le =p Will update more in daes to come ... Tada~~~

cherish

2006-01-08T15:19:00.000+08:00

Dun take anyone for granted.
One day you may wake up to realise your
have lost a diamond while busy collecting stones.

YeAr 2006

2006-01-03T01:10:00.000+08:00

A brand new year, year 2006 has arrived. Firstly lets wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! May the year gets better and better and better. Reflections are oways made juz be4 we cross e year. What have you done in 2005, wat are your most proud momments, and what promises you have made but yet to furfil it. Heard a story about tis american guy who went to a village and get to know a gal. As time goes by he needs to go back to his own country but promises e gal dat he will definitely come back for her. Back in his country, he becomes very successful in his career and soon get married. Time goes by. He decides to retire and spend his time travelling around e world. Due to some reasons he stepped back into e village once again. All buildings are no longer occupied and everyone had gone but for 1. Juz beside e well, an old woman with wrinkles n grey hair look at e american guy with tears flowing " you have finally come back " How many times have we make promises but get so busy over stuff that we forget all about it. However what we dont notice is our lurve ones believe in us and they are willing to wait for our promises. So, whateva regrets you have in 2005 or wateva years, leave it behind. Its a brand new year, work hard for all e dreams and promises you have made and make it a year where you can say proudly 2006 is the year where all dreams come true. Dont end it with regrets like past years again. Jiayou and fight on every1 !!!

ChRiStMaS Is ArD e CoRnER

2005-12-22T12:04:00.000+08:00

Juz bought a crown colour t-shirt and a jacket from Crocodile. Thz to my pals for e jacket haha =p Hmmz, not much $$ to spend during thi festive season sianz ... think i must start saving up wheneva i earn $$ Too used to spending all of dem all at once. Aniwae wishing every1 a happy holiday and fight hard for e hongbao challenge if ya know what i am saying CHEERS !!!

SadZ ... PaThEtIc ... FeElInG DoWn

2005-12-11T13:53:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG ... I failed my driving test, got a whopping 32 points ==> muz be tat stooopid tester wateva ... nuting to write liao

3 DaEs To DrIvIbG TeSt

2005-12-06T19:16:00.000+08:00

Hmmmz ... onli 3 daes left to driving test. Farni thing is i have absolute confidence dat i gonna pass e test. I am so confident that i even sleep while driving =p Some secret agent took my photo without me knowing it ... Haha

HongBao Challenge has officialli started ... Cool Hope this mth wll be e month and i am going to giv my parents a big fat red hongbao WAHAHAA !!! And hope everyones get a super income this month n hav a merry hohoho christmas + e most rewarding and $$ new year u ever had. ChEeRs !!!!!!!!

So MaNi DrIvInG LeSsOnS !!!

2005-12-03T01:27:00.000+08:00

Wow~ For so mani daes i will be having my driving lessons. Morning , afternoon , night wateva timing i oso have. But guess it cant be helped, 9th dec is my test n i am still far from driving " zai zai " on e road ... Haha zhilian abit, took some pics while driving =p Every1 plz pray for me to pass on tat dae thzzz

So Mani Stuff To Buy

2005-11-22T16:45:00.000+08:00

A long time nv update my blog le .... Haha, juz went orchard todae and found out i have so mani stuff to buy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But i hav so little $$ to spend !!!!!!!!! ~sadz~ Adidas pullover, a brown sun glasses, some stylo shirts, pants, jeans, cap, dye my hair, watch movies, go sing ktv, go clubbing, go eat delicious fooooood & going overseas for holiday ... but all this needs money, lots n lotz of dem. Have to work hard for it le ... Hmmz christmas coming soon, so for dose who read my blog, plz buy prezzie according to my wishlist... thz alotz =p Or maybe i will juz buy all these items at once in my DREAMZ ... tada allz

SiLeNcE is golden

2005-11-07T18:13:00.000+08:00

So i am not gonna sae aniting ... but e answer to e question ( see my last post )

Ans : Cos Xing Chaun Mei Dian Shi ( Mediacorp -- New boat no Tv )

Kinda freezing yah ... hope every1 has a nice laf cheerios ...

HaLlOwEeN

2005-11-01T15:55:00.000+08:00

Ooooo its halloween todaez ... but i stayed at home Wahaha ... Been a wk since i update ... but till now still dunno wat to write. Slp veri little e past few daes, not a veri good thing cos i spend most of those times playing DOTA. OMG !!! Heez tats y todae i am staying at home ( slp like a pig liao omos 14hrs of slp worz ) Company has some changes starting 2molo and its going to be a very big breakthru for all of us. Jiayou to all, may every1 gain wat dey wan most from e company and work towards deir dreamz regardless wat obstacles dey goin to face in e future. Jiayou to all those in uni nw ... few wks to exams le so u all better studiee hard. Jiayou to all who is sitting for deir O's , juz endure 3 more weeks den u can enjoy le so strive on. And jiayou to me, being spending too much time on games le ... no good ... muz cut down half e time spend le. So to end e post i will ask u all a stoopid question ( cian bian wen da ti )

question : How come dere is no TV on e new boat xiao ming bought ?

p.s answer will be revealed in my nxt post ...

Errr...

2005-10-24T08:55:00.000+08:00

Due to popular demand, i will update my blog ( heeez i so thick skin ) Actualli dunno what to writez oso so i will juz write sum crapz ( meaningful craoz i supposed )

To Mr Lloyd, Thz for e effort u have put in thruout this NDO. I am surez u will become e individual champion in e end n definitely we will lead our team to GLORY ~~ Dunch be too upset by e fact e dateline for graduation has been extended ... rather treat it as a new challenge to overcome.
To Miss Chloe n Miss Cornnie, Thz for e effort tooz ... Have seen u all fighting hard all this while. Chloe thz for e small token yah, i ll ask LJ n Linh to push u all e way de ~evil grin~ Cornnie i ll ask yr bro to push u all e way tooz ( not thinking u can escape huhz ) Aniwaez I believe u 2 will become BAM by e next feng shen bang ( actualli is u all promised me de lar ) Glad to have ya 2 in my team =p
To Mr Daryll n Mr Jingpeng n Mr Jiaxian, Thz for e effort threez ... JP u juz need to be more confident in yrself n i am sure u will make it. Daryll, BEM is definitely within grasp work hard for it and you ll achieve yr goal. JX find a balance btw studies n career, i am sure u will definitely succeed.
Thz XingChuangShenHua for e 6 wks u have given me, once again thz to all and i wish you all e best. Aniwae we wun lose tat stoooooopid insanity ritez !!!!!!!

Thz to Mr Johnathon for e super big leg u hav given me. Haha nv realli take care of ya be4 so i am goin to make amends now.Heeez ani problems juz throw to me bahz ( i am not meaning yr sch work ) Thz to all my dls n uls too n Mr DX . Without u i wunch be here writing this LOL Again i will sae one more time, you ll hit BRM by BiaoYangDaHui.

Heeeheeez so mani thz to ppl but e problem is i dunch think they will read my BLOG !!! Cos onli 1-2 know my bloggie add LOL Haha told ya what i have written was crap. Aniwae juz read Ting2 bloggie osoz, know ya distracted at e momment but keep in mind exams is coming in a few daes time. Plz put aside every unhappi things in yr mind n focus on e exams. I have kept telling u to stay happie le so plz do so kz. Cheer up n BeSt Of LuCk to ya. ( know ya ll read my blog so i write it here )

Lastly ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I HAVE GONE TO KTV ( not tat long actualli ) so whoeva wants to go ktv nxt time plzzzzzz drag me along.Thank Yew.

1 YeAr MoRe ...

2005-10-19T18:50:00.000+08:00

1 Year older
1 Year more mature
1 Year more of troubles
1 Year more of reponsibilities
1 Year more of experience
1 Year more of wrinkles
1 Year more of stoopidity
1 Year more of wisdom
1 Year more of geekiness
1 Year more of stories to share
1 Year more of happiness
1 Year more of sadness
1 Year , 1 Year more ...

~DesTiNy , DeStiNy will FinD her wAy ~

TreAsUrE e OnEs U LurVe

2005-10-14T17:35:00.000+08:00

Went to Ms Yingzhi dad's funeral yesterday ... sad to see my fren has lost a precious one but glad to see she is strong enuf and i will believe she will get stronger in e future ... Nonetheless, this shows hw one's life is so vulnerable, u nv know when u gonna leave this world, No one can confidently say that he will still be living tomorrow. Live, old, sick, death is all part and parcels of life ... being thinking about sum parts from " tuesday wif morris" e professor knew he has not much time left, but he never once felt unhappy abt it, instead he took e opportunity to show lotz of ppl around e world what is e true meaning of living. True meaning of living ... wats that? Actualli, whats e purpose of us being born into this world...to juz work for a living n survive n lead a normal life till we step into e coffin? Or we are born into this world to pursue our dreaz, fight for what we want, tried no matter how many times we fail. I truely believe e later ... There is no goal better than this one "to know as you lie on your deathbed that you lived your true life, and you did whatever made you happy" You lived your true life, the life you wanted and not e road that you followed others... Tears are sometimes an inappropriate response to death. When a life has been lived completely honestly, completely successfully, or just completely, the correct response to death's perfect punctuation mark is a smile. Just like our IP, he would want every1 to smile if e time comes when he leaves for a better place cos he know he has done what he had wanted his whole life with no regrets... I sincerely hope every1 will notice e importance of cherishing own's luv ones... and think about e momment from nw till e day he dies -- wether he is living his own life e whole time following others ard, or is he taking his own decisions live e life he wants and at e same time benefits otherz ... What we have done for ourselves alone dies with us; what we have done for others and the world remains and is immortal ...

Nuting to write 2

2005-10-10T17:28:00.000+08:00

I hAv NuTiNg To WrIte ( sum1 suggested this to me )
If ani1 wants to help me can msn me , i will giv ya my password ... you write for me thanz

NuThInG To WrITe

2005-10-06T17:55:00.000+08:00

I wanna go KTV !!! Has been a mth since i go to ktv ... feeling e urge everydae =p Muz train hard for juedui superstar mah ( juz kidding ) Long time never watch movie oso lez ... think i gonna go JB stock up lotz of dvds ( original -- eeer u dun believe me? ) so i can spend some xiao ji time watching ... Damn ... i am so writing crap, at this type of timing tooz ... crapppppppppy me ... Let me think of sum stuff to drag it long . Eeer ... i am gonna charge all of you for reading my blog nxt time ... e fee is a testimonial for my frenster. Qt pathetic, i knoe i am not veri well-liked ( so little testi in frenster ) but i am trying to make up for it now by forcing you all to write ... heehee ~evil grins~
Aniwae be4 i end , thz to linh for e yummy dried beef ( i force her to bring for me de ) Wowz~ i cant believe i am such a evil guy ... heehee ~evil grins again~

A TiRiNg WeeKeNd

2005-10-03T17:52:00.000+08:00

Sat Sun , 2 daes slots for PSC ( Philosophy of success course ). Many things to write ... but i dunno where to start ... What i know is that this course is really a life changing course . Like wat Mr GX saes PSC is like a piece of mirror, you can clearly see all your weakness thru this reflection ... however changes are always not easy ... tides always have their ups and downs juz like our lifes . There's surely lots of difficult situations and obstacles u have to face, lots of ppl who mocks at you who dun believe in you and lots of weakness and fears you yourself have to overcome. However all these are not reasons for you to give up on your dreams. The saddest part in life is not when all ppl give up on you, it is when you yrself give up on yrself. One may argued that he had gave his best in things but question yrself truely, have you ever realli give yr full or is tat juz an excuse to take e so calles easy way out. Yes, overcoming all these difficulties might be painful but if you choose to run away from it, e regrets you get as yrs goes by is unbearable. For these past 21 yrs, i myself have lots of regrets ... but the one that hits me most is i didnt do aniting at all to make my parents feel proud of me ... Failures after failures, i oways kp thinking that wateva i am gonna be in e future is MINE ... its as if the whole world is revolving ard me. I have never cared about e feelings of those ppl who cared about me ... howeva PSC has changed me ... and i am realli grateful to it. This 2 daes I can see many ppl are affected by this course deeply, howeva i sincerely hope that every1 will oways remember this feeling for life, do not give up no matter what circumstances ... Never never give up ... wheneva there are momments when you are feeling down and helpless, oways remember this 2 daes of your lives, for what reasons are you trying so hard forz ... for what reasons that you are even willing to forgo yr life ... plz plz remember it ... To end it off, claps for all who attended e 9th PSC ... you all deserved it ... and a reminder to all those who haben been to it, plz go and you will notice e significant change in yourself ...

LaZy ME ...

2005-10-01T10:35:00.000+08:00

Few daes nv blog le ... abit lazy + dunno wat to write ... Everydae sleep until 3pm !!! WTH !!! Have been wasting quite alot of time on sleeping . "Sleeping is to prepare you for a longer journey" Lol ... but the way i sleep these few daes ( oways 6am to 3pm) i think i am going to heaven faster ... duhz =p Gonna set myself a timetable to follow ... so i wun be wasting my precious time stoning ard and of course SLEEPING ... haha ... my whole post revolves ard sleepz hope u all readers wun drift to sleep after reading it ( my music is like a lullaby for slping tooz ) Lol =p

Another new week ...

2005-09-26T18:55:00.000+08:00

Great weekend i hav, hope every wkend will be as happy ( muz be less tiring though ) =p

Sat -- NDO time as usual ... hmmz though my team got 3rd in ranking for this week, i am overall quite happy wif their performance. Room for improvement though and i believe they will be the top team the champion team after 6 weeks of NDO. Got to learn a stoopid dance that we have to perform on STAGE for 2molo !!! OMG !!! Haha i will touch on this dance ltr on .. Aniwaez after tats i went to celebrate bdae wif my frenz. Its KitKat's 21st bdae.Me Dodo Clarence Weewee Zhanwei n e bdae boy kitkat went to eastcoast there to celebrate ( bought a cake , huge blottle of vodka , 1.5l of coke ) Played a veri intersting game ( using cards of course ) in e end 3/6 of us are wasted ... not gonna disclose who but is definitely not me ( i am 1 of e most sober actualli ) aniwae a fun way to celebrate yr 21st bdae ... "i can see ... i cant see ... i can see ... i cant see ... i wanna eat sand !!! " -- from a veri drunk guy LOLZ !!! Reached home at 6am ... tired

Sun -- Wake up at 8am !!! onli 1.5hrs of sleep & still abit of the after effects of hard liquor, i did drank a cup of vodka neat and i admit i am a bad drinker ... Aniwae bath and rush dwn to Furama Hotel for rehersal for that STOOPID DANCE !!! All went well though for e rehearsal and we settle down for a highly anticipated lesson MR JAMES PHANG SEMINAR !!! Lotz of impactful stories were told but i wun go into details cos it may take up 10hrz for me to type out everything ... Lolz ... Aniwae we cocked up e dance at e actual performance ... hmmz cant be considered a dance osoz lar is more of a sign language thingy ... haha HACK CARE !!! Dinner went to eat steamboat at chinatown YUMMY !!! And the dae ends wif a manager's meeting ... =p

Hope every1 who went for e lesson realli strive hard for their dreamz .. i am sure you all benefitted from it . For those who nv go ... theres gonna be another seminar by MR JAMES PHANG on 30th oct ... hope to cya derez ... =p

I hAv CuT my HaIr ... =p

2005-09-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

Hehe ... juz cut my hair at two way holistic ( a salon tat i frequent ) Lolz ... luv my new hairstyle lotz :p
Aniwae this is be4 ... Purposeli looks a bit blur for added effects

And this is after ...

At first i would like to live my hair long ... but kana scolded by Mr Jackie as not professional ... Aniwaes ani commentz on my new hair ? Feel free to laf at me if ya want , i will juz box u hard =p kk i stop here ...

SoNgS that stay wif me when i am bored ...

2005-09-22T06:40:00.000+08:00

Being spending the past few daes listening to songs ... tons of songs ... but theres a few which i recommend. When u cant get to sleep or when u r feeling dpwn, listen to these few songs you will feel more down =p Found out that i cant see e chinese characters in e blog so i using hanyupinyin nowz :p
1) Mayday -- Chaoren
2) Landy -- Zhu wo sheng ri kuai le
3) Wilber -- Wo rang ni xhou le
4) ZhangZhiLin -- Xiang ai wu meng
5) Stephy -- Ta bu zhun wo ku
6) Show -- Hui she kong jian
7) Nikki -- Ke xi ta you nu peng you
E abv 7 songs are highly recommended to allx... realli nice ... if ani1 have nice songs care to send to me ... thz lotz =p

RaInDrOpZ Kp FaLlInG on my HeAd

2005-09-21T06:22:00.000+08:00

Its a tuesday afternoon and its raining ... haha every1 who reads my blog shd know what it means ... A GREAT DAE AHEAD !!! Clueless on what to write ... so i will juz end here ... haha, when i am in e mood again then i continue bahz ....

NiCe MoOn OuT ThErEz

2005-09-19T20:42:00.000+08:00

Juz reached home ... arghhh so damn late againz. Haha basically after e manager's meeting wich ends at 3am ( lotz of farni questions being raised ) a couple of us went for steamboat buffet. Not bad, and i realli have to praised e china man for his service, putting on a smile everytime we ask him to pour more soup for us. =p Guess what am i doing now ... yapz ... staring outside e window againz. Notice e moon is especialli bright ... Haha mooncake festival has juz passed ... but dun realli feel e atmosphere of this festival. Aniwaez, 人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺。。。there will oways be up and downs in our life, however thats what makes our life more colourful and meaningful. Getting sleepy ... wish every1 a belated HaPpY MoOnCaKeY DaY =p

Its RaInInG ... again

2005-09-17T18:20:00.000+08:00

Juz got home ... Wait for that freaking NR3 for 1hr !!! Poor kid like me has no $$ to take cab thus have to wait stoopidly for that freaking bus. Aniwae its raining again ... coolz that means a great day ahead. 11th NDO is 12hrs away from nwz ... I gonna make my team the CHAMPION !!! Staring out at the window nowz ... looking at the raindropz falling ... finding it hard to understand why i like to stare out of the window ( basically juz looking at that black piece of sky with or without stars ) everytime i cant fall asleep ... maybe nxt time i will know e answer bahz. Listen to the rythm of the falling rain, telling me just what a fool i have being ............

I LuV RaInY DaEs ...

2005-09-16T06:50:00.000+08:00

Tuesday -- Went KTV wif the same bunch of ppl Pat + Elena + newcomer ZhiQian. Ting2 who is in e middle of her exams came to join us tooz ( muz scold her le ) Aniway, fun dae of ktv againz as every1 sings badly at the start " zhou ying " here and there cos our vocal all not " open " yetz ... haha. Went to coy and benefits alot during that time. Understand more about Emall concept ... beware all my frenz, u all can't resist the temptations of EMALL !!! And another good news Liverpool won Real Betis 2-1 ... Yah it is raining tat day...

Wed -- Sleep until 3pm then wake up.Not entirely my fault cos outside weather too cooling and comfortable ( Raining of course ) Reached coy at 8+ waiting eagerly for the treat by Mr YJ ... a whopping $300 is spend on swensons ... wow ... and after tat delicious meal, we went for mambo!!! Cool even Mr Jackie went tooz and we enjoyed the night by dancing to those realli farni dance stepz ( sorri to whoever invented it ) Went home bath knock out ... supposed to meet Mr DX and Mr YJ 1030 at NUS, wake up at correct timing but while waiting for my dvd to burn ( anime ) i drift to sleep again ... hahaha

Thurz -- Waked up at 3pm againz ... staring at the comp... its gonna rain againz. Since the past 2 daes is raining and i have been enjoying it, todae will be a great dae for me tooz ( provided it rains ) ... =p

Conclusion -- I LuV RaInY DaEs

DrEaMz

2005-09-10T16:00:00.000+08:00

"No dreamer is ever to small; no dream is ever to big." -- unknown source ... Lol, juz happens to go through e webbie and saw this quote, doesn't even know which genious sae this sentence haha. Every1 and ani1 has dreams, big dreams, happy dreams, ambitious dreams. No one in this world is born to dream of himself as a begger...I Gonna Be The Most Pityful Begger In The World !!! Tats completely insane haha ... Have been dreaming alot since young ( same goes to every1 i suppose ) superheroes to vampires ( on e good side of course ) ... be a pilot to be a lawyer. Damn, I have so mani mani dreams but not once have i strive forward these dreams. Dreams to many ppl is juz aa desire which cant be furfiled in e reality thus thrown into yr sleep :p But how many of us realli believe that our dreams can in e future turns to reality. Flying, how i hope i can fly ... thus e ambition of being a pilot...Lol Being able to see the world at a bird's point of view that would be great ... So many places i want to go, so many stuff i want to buy, so many things i want to be ... dreams keep us alive keep us striving on ... Wishing every1 in e world can furfil their dreams ... Me sitting in front of the comp waiting to drift into dreamland logging out ...

Sleepless night

2005-09-09T16:32:00.000+08:00

Its 1:26am ... lots of time have been spend in "decorating" my blog. Still clueless about parts of it and Ting2 has gone to sleep cant ask her ... Trying hard to figure out myself though. A eventful day for me nonetheless ... bought 2 shirts from G2000 for $49 plus a bag for $33.9 Farni thing is my frenz actualli wanted me to buy a briefcase instead. Its so much fun to shop if i am able to purchase things i like without a worry ... Coat is readi today and another $300 flies away from my pocket.Wow a cool $400 has been spend today ... Sleepless night, thinking of leaving this cty to a place i really like... but that wd mean leaving my family behind ... Maybe i can onli dream of it at nite bahz, a world that truely belongs to me. Thinking about this alotz, Is singapore realli unsuitable for me or is it my own problem ... Haha lotz of crapz so i am ending it herez ... Ciaoz

Start of a crappy afternoon

2005-09-08T05:40:00.000+08:00

" The foolish man seeks happiness in the distance, the wise grows it under his own feet. " Not the first time i am blogging bt it has been quite a long time since e last time i blog. Have 4gotten e password for e previous account so thinking of starting a new one. A new begining for me bahz, taking on new roles and added responsibilities and facing this coldhearted world. Howeva i am glad to have lotz of great frenz beside me on this journey, fighting for our dreams wanting a better life other then becoming a minion in this realist society. Great thanks and hugs to those who have supported me in many ways and great hugs and thanks to those who have rejected me tooz. Without all of you all i wun be wat i am today. The quote above has a meaning. For a long time i have oways been unhappy, about this world about myself about everything. Since you are unhappy over so mani things y dun you change it ? And thats what i am doing rite now, it may seems absurb to lotz of ppl but definitely i am on e right track to my own happiness. Same goes for my frenz who are fighting together wif me. To end it off on a crappy afternoon, I would like to wish every1 well . Yes every1 including all those ppl i dun even know about. We are all living in this world, how you make yrself live happily and meaningfully is up to yrself. So full steam ahead to my desired world ...